on a scale of 1 - 10 i give it an [08]

I never thought i could be so happy to see somebody as i was on wednesday, Bee Ex Sigh's homecoming. All my old homies came back and it brought back so many feelings. 

i was OD happy to see Mz. X and Mizz Lizz. Especially since they gave me such a good insight on HU life.

I was excited to see others, one in particular, who i have missed in the worst way.

Others annoyed me with their presence, especially since it is obvious that nothing has changed and their phony attitudes are even more phony than before. 

All in all, a good day.

Fill you in on saturday night.

a [twilight] in my eye.

def spent the whole day with J. Beez and it was kinda great. She was my Sugar Daddy for the day and she took me to the movies

Twilight was cool!

Annoying in the beginning;;; with a WTF vibe

but after that it was a non-stop thriller that kept me on the edge of my seat.

Edward Cullen is od cool and Bella is cool to.

i would give it 4 out of 5 hangers [my rating system]

go see it guys!

first.time.

Finally got on my blog game. This should be fun! What's new in my life? 

Nothing, same old same old.

I guess I've been a little stressed out

I have come to notice that it is really hard to be productive with friends.

You spend so much time being friendly and worrying about each other's feelings that you lose sight of the task at hand. And boy do I hate inefficiency.

Enough with the sad stuff though

I am extremely happy that my infamous 08ers are coming home soon! I miss them soooo much,

I feel empty without them... how sad is it that I depend on them like that? 

Def counting down the days until my buddies come back!

Until then, though, its just gonna be the same old same old.

ok a little of my drama.

i know that it is almost winter, but events of summer 08 still have an impact on my life. 

on a very fun trip to coney island beach with my bad girl accomplice Stassi X., i met a very cute, funny, FOREIGN guy that we'll call "K". we kept in touch but not as much as we should have because i had other things on my mind such as my job;; and when i say my job, i mean the males at my job ;). 

at this job i met an interestingly [unique] guy that was technically my "boss";; lets call him "Chamzz". there was an undeniable attraction between us and our flirting was so obvious that the 5 year old campers knew we had it bad for each other.  my summer loves Brii and Dii told me i had to make a move on him before it was too late, and trust me i was trying, but there was a [little bitch] of a speed bump in my way. a co-worker of mine that was too obvious and desperate to know how bad she looked almost swept right under me and stole Chammz, even though i never really "had" him and even though i knew i never could really have him. At the end of the summer, things were the same between Chammz and I, no moves were made, no bond made, no connections, made just that undeniable attraction. so i decided that it would never be and i had to let summer 08 go.

school started again and i was happy as ever to be a senior.  i kept in touch with Chamzz and K but i couldn't stop thinking about Chammz;; he had some kind of hold on me.  when i talked it over with the summer loves, they told me that no matter how much i tried to forget him, i wouldn't until i got what i wanted from him.  So i arranged a "date" and we did our thing and it was nice but i knew that we were in 2 diffferent places in life and it would never work out:" I was young preppy and ready for my future. He was older, gangster, and is already in his future. 

I started to really talk to K again and since i decided Chammz was out of the question, I set up a date with K.  We went to the movies and had a great time. I noticed what a sweet generous loving [sexy] i had on my hands and it felt great. Later that night he asked me to be his girlfriend and how could i deny that sexy caribbean accent?

Why am i complaining?

The next day, Chammz starts telling me that he really likes me and wants us to be "together" (not the word he used, but a safe enough translation from gangster to english) i said WOW and honestly, i didn't have the heart to tell him i was taken. i didn't deny him nor did i accept but it has been in the back of my mind for a while. 

Why is it that you only get what you want when its too late ?

Not to say that i don't want K because i really do, but anyone who knows me can tell u that i "want" Chammz more. I couldn't tell you what it is about him, his carefree attitude, his five amazingly sexy tattoos, his bad ass demeanor, his big ass head. I couldn't tell you. 

So today, I didn't go to school and since i have been trying to spend time with Chammz forever, i decided to tell him to come over. We flirted and messed around and it was fun, but something was different from the first time we hung out like that. He fell asleep on my bed and i was awake; i looked over at him and he was drooling on my pillow, it was cute because he acts so tough but in the end he's just like everybody else, but i was also very annoyed. When he woke up we flirted a little more until he had to leave. I gave him a kiss goodbye. I think he thought of it as a See you later, but it was indeed a goodbye kiss. 

i don't know if i will ever see Chammz again, i know he will try to contact me but will i respond? again, i don't know.

what i do know is that i have an amazing, [slightly annoying but hey what can you do] boyfriend that i will try to make it work with.  i'll keep you updated.